Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 2’s Topic: Believing with faith in your heart.
As it seems like I run out of resources and options in my current situation, I feel compelled to turn toward that one particular “F” word to help remedy some of my pain and worries.
I am not a religious person by any means. I do not go to church or anything like that, so I don’t want to come off as preachy and in your face like a Bible salesman knocking on your door. However, these past few years have taught me to understand the notion of God and why believing in a higher power is both helpful and even therapeutic, especially when things appear bleaker each day for me.
Without faith, I would have slipped into an even darker place that I am all too familiar with … a place where I would never want anyone else to experience willingly. And let me tell you – it is all too easy to succumb to that particular darkness. It sneaks up to you when you are feeling down in the dumps, and then it blankets you in its ebony veil until traces of light start to fade away and disappear.
You become lulled into a sense of ease, but this is a false feeling. It’s not that your troubles are slipping away, because the rest of the world is going move on regardless, but instead it’s more like you are growing numb to both the good and the bad in your life.
In a sense, you transform into an empty husk wrapped tightly by scary thoughts, tucked away until someone or something shines some glimmer of hope your direction to awaken you, finally, from your deep stupor that will in fact consume you.
This was me to a T about four years ago. It was not a pretty sight, but I got through the brunt of it. Albeit eventually … It sure took awhile.
Adversity happens for everyone, and I will openly admit there are days where I think I am just an unlucky person in general. But perhaps this is just the negative perspective talking.
There’s that “F” word again. I don’t know much about religious hymns or even that many prayers very well, but I do emphasize how I love the Serenity Prayer in particular.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
When I feel pushed into a corner, when life seems to be testing me to the max and taking me to that breaking point where I’ll either snap in two or survive another trial, I have to remind myself that God is out there.
Again, this is not about religion. This is not about who believes in this or that. This is all about drawing from this certain “F” word to make yourself strong enough to persevere through any ordeal.
Faith. It’s such an incredible word, don’t you think?
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction