Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 3’s Topic: Peace of mind.
It’s almost 6 a.m. PST as I type this blog post out. As expected, it’s a side effect of having panic seep in all at once. The amount of worries have begun to pile up, causing me to experience insomnia and inconsistent sleep schedules. For the past few weeks in particular, I can’t say that I have hit the hay at the same time each night.
I have had to force myself to lie in bed and just hope I can doze off and catch some Z’s. I am not necessarily someone who needs a lot of sleep to function properly, but I’ll point out how I do have a restless mind multiple times throughout a typical evening.
Do you know what I mean? It’s that in-between area with your mind thinking thoughts and that state where you are kind of dreaming, but you’re not. One could say I take that trip to la la land often during bedtime. Gosh, I wish I could just lay my head on the pillow, flip that switch to tell my brain, “Go rest now” and then turn in for the night. Heh, if only it were that easy … if only.
I also realize drinking a lot more caffeine for the past month and a half doesn’t help matters either. When I am stressed out, I often turn to soda (hey, it’s better than being a drunk boozing out on alcohol, right?) to make me feel better. I have had to forego the diet I was on in favor of cheaper, albeit unhealthy alternatives to cope.
Caffeine of course makes it harder for you to sleep, so there is no surprise to find me up all jittery for hours and hours past midnight. I attempt to tire myself with doing mentally taxing things until I grow weary, but this can only go so far.
Most notably, I have defaulted to turning on a random show and then just listening to it as I attempt to doze off and fall asleep. Yup, leave it to a method that would work on little kids so you can tucker them out for bedtime …
I have even tried music as a sleep aid. Heck, this tune below was an actual soundtrack I played for like 10 minutes before I concluded it wasn’t going to do the job. I’m a geek, so don’t be surprised it’s a soundtrack from one of my favorite video games of all time.
However, ultimately, I am just aware that I have been dealing with sleep problems because I am just so darn concerned about everything in my life. I know I shouldn’t feel this way to this degree, but I am a worrywart. I am certain my peace of mind would become just dandy once I stabilize the ship.
But for now, I just feel too uneasy to rest properly. Until I can get my life in order, a good night’s sleep seems out of the question.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction