Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 7’s Topic: Self-esteem.
When you look in the mirror, do you like what you see?
Beyond the physical appearance and all that jazz. I mean … do you like what you see in all of your entirety? As in, I am referring to your whole state as a person in this thing called life. Do you approve of your status? Your sense of stability? Your relationship levels with others … and everything else that you could possibly care about in this world.
Basically, do you like you? If you were to walk up to yourself, staring right into your own eyes with a straight face, would you be able to say, “Yeah, I respect you.”
For me, the easy answer is no. No, I do not like what I see. If I don’t approve of myself, why the heck should others do the same for me? But then again, I am always just a work in progress. It’s annoying.
This is the point where I fight off the urge to punch a hole in the mirror, but broken glass and cleaning up the blood won’t make the personal, self-hating feelings go away. Only motivating myself to invoke positive change each day, no matter how marginal, can possibly accomplish anything worthwhile at this point.
For instance, I felt like I was getting fat months ago. So what did I do? I went on a diet. I ate properly, I transitioned toward a healthier lifestyle with some exercise. And you know what? It actually worked to great effect.
I lost a lot of weight (35+ pounds to be exact), and I was starting to look better physically. The random issues like feeling exhausted for no reason all the time all but went away as my energy levels skyrocketed. My strength improved, my outlook on life was happier and I had bubbling confidence.
It was good for me to feel genuinely and actually healthy for once in my life.
Granted, a lot of the effort I put in toward bettering myself physically has been peeling back for the past few weeks or so. Don’t worry. It’s not like I became a tub of lard or anything, but I have not been eating properly by any means.
Let’s just say a lot of junk food has made its way back into my refrigerator. Eating in an unhealthy manner has punished my body in some facets. I can tell. Still, I try to exercise regardless to balance some of the adverse aspects. Kind of.
When the ship stabilizes again in my life, I have the knowledge and means to get back on track in the physical department. It’s the important lesson in all of this for everyone out there.
If you do not like something about yourself, THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!
If you don’t like being physically fat, then just embark on a personal journey toward whatever actions are required to counteract the problem. Eat right. Exercise. Cut down on the stuff that hurts your health. Whatever it takes. I know it can be done because I already went through it myself.
The same can be applied to other facets within your life. If you don’t think you are smart enough at something, for example, then do your research. Study, learn and grow as a person. It’s a matter of time, diligence and patience. The third thing here is the hardest element to carry out of the three. But this is natural. Perseverance isn’t easy.
Keep trying each day. Just keep trying, OK … Always strive for earning self-approval.
All of this, of course, goes back to the mirror thing. One day, I want to see my reflection in the mirror and be proud of what’s standing there in front of me.
It’s all worth it in the end because your own self-esteem is worth it. Don’t you agree?
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction