Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 10’s Topic: Identity.
“Nhan, who the heck are you?”
I guess it’s a good question you could probably ask me these days. And I wish I could give you a good, respectable answer. Truth be told, there are days where I don’t even know how to identify myself.
A lot has happened over the years. Some good things. Some bad things. And there are also some questionable things thrown into the mix as well. All of which has contributed in some shape or form toward creating my “identity” as a person to this day. However, let’s say our identities are like blank canvases, just waiting to be painted on with whatever comes to mind.
If you could take everything in your life and then splash it all over this canvas, what can people identity you as?
For some people, it’s pretty obvious.
Michael Jordan the basketball player.
Peyton Manning the quarterback.
Taylor Swift the singer.
There are millions of examples, but the point is these individuals all have their easily noted identities.
At one point, all I wanted was others to know me as Nhan the journalist, but this particular dream had to be tossed aside when things did not work out as planned. As a result, I lost confidence with myself. I became bitter at the world. I turned to different avenues, just hoping to find some semblance of an identity I could call my own.
Just whatever it may be … Just whatever it may be that the universe wants me to end up as …
But of course, it’s not like the cosmos could just line up the stars for me and display my intended destiny for the future, just glimmering across the night sky for everyone to see. Oh, I wish. I do believe everyone has a purpose in this world, and it’s our job to figure out our respective callings.
And again, one can ask … “Nhan, who the heck are you?”
I hate to say it, but I do feel like a nobody at the moment. I am going through my own personal hell, and as things seem to get tougher and tougher each day, I have to begin prioritizing what I want to do when I can get back on my feet and start gearing up toward the future.
I want to be a somebody in this world. I long to become someone people know and respect. This, deep down, is one of my various goals for revamping my identity. But other things are in order before I can embark on building up my reputation as someone I could be proud of …
Coming to terms with one’s identity sure can be a doozy, don’t you think? If there are things not right in my life, all I can really do is correct them until I am completely pleased with my identity as a whole.
One day, someone else can fill in the blank.
Nhan the (?).
And I hope it’s something good.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction