Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 27’s Topic: Getting rid of insomnia.
Getting a good night’s sleep in a long time has been quite the treat. Catching Z’s after a day full of personal triumphs and channeling all the stress from the past two months into something productive has been empowering. It just feels nice being able to slip into bed, tucked under some warm sheets while feeling the “good” kind of tired, if you know what I mean.
I realize a lot of my prior blog posts have at times come off as panicky, and rightfully so I had all the reasons in the world to freak out.
But storms come and go, and I can finally at least say my sails are facing toward an ideal direction for once. I hope that my body can return back to a relatively, and more importantly, consistent sleeping schedule that I don’t have to feel embarrassed about (no more staying up until 3 a.m. or later because of insomnia.)
The insomnia was damaging to my well-being. My inability to sleep properly derived from all kinds of stress and personal pressure I put on myself (heck, I have even spotted some random white hairs in the mirror for a few weeks now.) I woke up exhausted, feeling upset at myself and everything going on in my life, but above all else I just felt like I had nothing to look forward to each day.
It got to a point where I considered taking sleep aids, but I didn’t want to resort to something that could form unnatural habits, especially if it meant taking medicine. I also tried all of my various methods to attempt finding some solace in the sleep department. No dice. It didn’t matter what kind of shows or songs I played at night. I just could not doze off when I wanted to.
In reality, though, everything was a necessary evil. I had to go through my bout with doubt, persevering just enough to see that things could in fact turn out OK if I kept my wits about me.
I hope now I can just hit the hay at the same time (give or take) each evening, with the intention of waking up around a good time each morning as well. I want to set up a sense of stability, with this stability leading to structure and this structure of course opens up a means to be both happy and healthy.
Oh gosh, I just feel so content with being able to rest easy, at least for the time being. I still have so many other random issues and problems I need to sort out. Finding solutions for each and every single one of them will take some time, but taking care of this sleeping dilemma is one thing I can cross off the list.
Sleeping is just one of those things that every single person has to do, we all take it for granted, but I definitely plan on relishing my chance to catch some sweet dreams. It’s been a long time coming. That’s for sure.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction