Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 36’s Topic: Those long walks at night to think.
So last night, I started the process toward rebuilding my life, at least to my liking.
After work, I decided it was about time I went to a local game store to play card games. I totally did awful the whole night, but it was fun. I had lots of fun. It was good for a socially awkward guy like myself to mingle with people who just wanted to play cards.
I hope to continue playing cards from here on out. It should be a blast.
But afterward, because I was unable to get a ride home, I had to walk the entire way back. It takes a whole hour or so on foot.
So I committed to the tread in the cold, frosty weather. It wasn’t too chilly or anything, but it was a temperature just low enough so you would feel it if you weren’t bundled up. Nonetheless, I didn’t mind my long walk back up the hill toward my place.
With plenty of time to think about things, I can at least say there were happier thoughts than before where I was overrun with fear and worry. I just thought about how the pieces are falling into place. A place to live. Food to eat. A job. Some goals to keep me going.
If you really lay it all out, one could say I am on my way toward truly being back on my feet and in control of my life.
I guess it goes to show that changing your outlook on your situation, no matter how dire it truly is, is the key to finding some sense of happiness.
Believe me when I say that the long walk back home was once one of the worst, and I mean worst, hourlong endeavors my feet could put up with as I would walk in a straight line up the hill and then finally make a turn at some point.
When you’ve got nothing but bad thoughts clouding your mind, the walk just feels like torture and you wish you can just fast-forward through the whole thing and be back in bed already.
But gosh. Cold weather. Winter effects still in motion with snow and all that good stuff. And here I am … just typing away like I am able to write away all the bad stuff to my name. And yes, there are plenty of random things I wish I could take care of, but some money in the pocket and the hope to get through the next few months and beyond will mean I can stay on track.
I’ll gladly take 100 more walks if it means I can feel this optimistic about everything. Gladly.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction