Everyday NhanSense – Day 46

Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 46’s Topic: Frustration.
Ugh, today was a day I wish I could just pry open my head and take a look at what’s bothering me. Because, oh boy, today was quite a doozy, emotionally anyway.

I just suddenly felt super frustrated near the end of my shift at work for some reason. I do not know exactly why in the sense that it just came up abruptly, literally out of nowhere. Maybe it was a case of my mood swings going a bit haywire, but then again I am pretty good at keeping the emotions under wraps for a majority of the time.

Ack, I wish I could just toss away these stupid feelings. It makes me feel unmotivated, just not passionate enough to stir up some momentum.

Again, life has been more than fine for me. Better than OK, honestly.

Lots of ups and less downs to drag me down into the pits of despair and self-loathing. But regardless, I have felt like a mess in the past few hours. I am scared. I am frightened.

But why?!

I just want to crawl into bed and sleep the stupid feelings away, but I want to get stuff done as well. Ugh, what a bind. What a bind, indeed.

Whatever. Tomorrow should be a better day. Here’s a random song.

Song: Ignite
Anime: Sword Art Online II

• Vocals/Mix/Video/Lyrics: Jayn
• Art: http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=13779
• Translation: http://www.lyrical-nonsense.com/lyric…

♫♫♫ Lyrics ♫♫♫
Take aim at this broken world!
Lock onto all of the pain and sadness
Pull the trigger without second thoughts!

Once long ago, I could let myself be vulnerable,
And with an open heart, I knew how to let my tears flow

But somehow I, lost the courage to accept the pain
All that’s left now is regret that’s slowly turning into hate.

I can feel the weight bear down on me, can I find the strength to wrestle free?
I simply want to find, a future that – can really be mine.

Take aim at this broken world!
Lock onto all of the pain and sadness
Pull the trigger, without second thoughts!

Reach out and accept the pain,
Use all the sadness to fuel your fire
Just embrace it, don’t let your heart frost!

Please let your instincts be your guide,
Listen to your heartbeat inside,
A new path is in sight!

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction


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