Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 56’s Topic: Serenity.
Yesterday, I felt a lot of uneasiness in the morning. I felt off my game at work, which reached a point where I thought I was about to lose control of it all.
I wanted to find that happy medium, so I clammed up and kept to myself. I wanted to scream out loud, but I knew I shouldn’t. I wanted to punch a wall, but I knew I shouldn’t.
Days like this happen to the best of us. They come and go. It’s only natural, of course. You aren’t going to be perfect 100 percent of the time, but I suppose I was just more irritated at myself that I was so aware of how much I was screwing up.
But when it came time to leave work, I retreated far from it all as fast as I could, ran an errand or two, blew off some steam and then collected myself before things could get out of hand. I found some sense of serenity amid the inner chaos and turmoil.
Heh, who needs to hire a therapist when you can just figure this stuff all on your own over time? But nonetheless, I’ve contemplated seeking professional help so many times. I’ve even considered looking for support groups for people who suffer from emotional stability like myself.
Mood swings or not, I guess I have my own particular methods for coping when I feel like bursting. They don’t always work, but I make do when it counts. Most of the time, anyway.
There have been plenty of close calls, various moments where I thought I was going to blow a gasket or have a breakdown and just drop down on the ground to curl into a ball. I don’t have panic attacks like some people do, but I guess one could argue that my own respective “attacks” could be just as bad in their own right.
When I feel really out of it, I contemplate some kind of means to release the excess emotions out, like letting the air out of a balloon.
For me, it could be throwing everything I got at work, exhausting myself so I can feel too tired to be mad … or so my own logic believes.
When you are feeling uneasy, find any traces of serenity and try to use it to your advantage. Don’t let the bad stuff rule your life when it doesn’t have to.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction