Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 58’s Topic: Being weary.
I have felt a lot more tired than usual. Being weary isn’t pleasant, but I guess it’s to be expected. Perhaps I have overworked myself a bit too much. It’s part of my natural work ethic.
I don’t like that feeling of being lazy when I can just be productive. In my mind, not moving at work isn’t work, so I don’t like taking breaks. I keep going and going, barely slowing down if I can help it.
But at the same time, I think I am hurting myself, at least somewhat. Gradually, I am probably overexerting my mind and body. My normal “warning” sign is I get bloody noses after work when I have really pushed myself for a given day.
And let’s just say I’ve been getting a few bloody noses more than I would like. Once in a while, sure, but a few back-to-back instances? Not good.
Not good at all.
But that’s the slight bind I am in. I guess technically speaking I should ease up, but I don’t want to. I can’t just request some time off because I need to work, as I do need to make sure I keep income coming in to get back on my feet.
In other words, I can’t afford not to work. But that’s all right. Most people have to tough it out when they are hurting a bit. I don’t mind biting down on the bullet when I need to, even if my body aches or feels a little too sore on certain days.
In other news, it’s great to have money to my name. It’s not a lot, mind you, but it’s empowering being able to have some extra cash in the wallet to use on whatever I like.
For instance, I bought this coffee mug yesterday.
It was only a few dollars, but hey – I had the money to buy it. Getting tips at work is awesome.
I am thinking about taking it to work and using it as my special mug because I feel like it. That’s some confidence right there.
I felt like trash a few months back being jobless, and now being employed makes me more comfortable to be who I am. I am a geek who likes cats, so lo and behold I have a cat mug.
A sip of coffee from this bad boy is gonna be mighty tasty. I’ll say.
So yeah, I am feeling weary as heck, but things will be all worth it if I stick to it.
All I need is some enthusiasm to remind myself what I am fighting for, which is for my happiness and sense of independence.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction