Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 119’s Topic: Finding answers amid the confusion.
The more I figure out things about myself, the more I realize how truly complex and all over the place I truly am as an individual. Well, I am complex in the sense that I have a lot of random ailments that more or less affect me in some fashion day-to-day.
For instance, I often talk about my mood swings and how they essentially make me an “inconsistent” person. You really don’t know what kind of Nhan you’re gonna get sometimes. I don’t even know the answer on a given day to be honest.
Mood swings make me erratic, almost unstable, because I shift around from all kinds of moods. Yesterday, for instance, I felt sad. I am talking about feeling so blue I was lying on my bed borderline ready to cry my eyes out, or at least this is how I felt for most of the day.
Now for today, as I type this out no less, I feel perfectly fine. No particular emotion you would write home about just yet, but I know I am always on the verge of bouncing around to a random emotion I can’t predict.
Not only that, my mood swings seemingly make my emotions more “extreme” so to speak. When I get mad, it seems I am angrier than I should be. When I am just a bit upset about something, I can sink into mini-depression episodes where I just feel like it’s the end of the world or something.
Quite frankly, I wish I could be set to more obvious patterns when it comes to my moods. I wish there would be less toss-ups in regards to feeling this or that.
It’s really quite confusing when you sit down and think about it.
“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction