The 54th Deadline: To Continue Dreaming

The 54th Deadline: Life’s always going to give you another chance if you’re constantly persistent.
It’s a wonderful thing to dream. Like everyone else as a child, dreams kept me going. Dreams kept me motivated to stay in school, get good grades and all that stuff we’re all supposed to strive for because it’s the appropriate course of action. With any luck, all of the effort would be rewarded at some point.

Eventually, our dreams should materialize into something worthwhile, or so we are told.

When you’re a clueless/naive kid, you don’t know what the heck you want to be. I thought I could be a firefighter for example. There was a point where I thought I could easily become a video game developer.

Of course, as I got older and eventually found myself in college and choosing a major, I opted for journalism. I wanted to be a journalist. A journalist. And nothing more.

But without having to repeat myself entirely this time, I will sum up the gist of what happened roughly five years ago – I screwed up. Badly, I have to add. And so badly that it has been a long, arduous process to reverse and actually attempt to heal some of the mental and emotional damage I had to endure.

So just like that, my dream faded for the time being. It would be years before I thought I could have some semblance of a normal person. It would be literally a year and a half after graduating college before I even found a “job” to escape that cruddy unemployment tag.

What a glorious dream, right? I had the hopes and aspirations to become a young, potentially talented reporter/editor in the making! Well, at the very least, this was the plan.

Nothing quite panned out that way at all. I have to say.

But I digress.

I don’t want to sound negative for the mere sake of it. I am not saying the notion of dreaming necessarily leads to false promises and other pessimistic thoughts. For me, a lot of my dreams have since vanished over the years. Life happened. Needless to say, I sure suffered the brunt of a lot of personal depression and other unwanted circumstances that drove me into a corner.

Had I just stumbled a tad more down certain dark paths, only God knows what would have happened. Thankfully, I had enough sense to tough it out when sadness, anger and everything else on that negative side of the spectrum consumed me for literally years at a time. And to this day, a lot of these certain feelings and emotions still linger. They don’t go away. I wonder if they ever will.

Regardless, I tell myself to continue dreaming. Yes, that’s right, amid all of this inner turmoil I deal with on an everyday basis, I have to continue dreaming.

It may sound a tad silly. It may seem even a bit illogical, but truth be told dreaming has kept my head above that metaphorical water in my mind whenever it feels like I am drowning in there.

Ayako_Mayo_Chiki_-_03_H264720pF88D5BE9mkv_snapshot_0821_20110721_212649I truly believe the reason is simple – dreams have kept me looking up when there are times where I want to hang my head down in shame.

Should I be so darn hard on myself? Part of me thinks so. Another part of me says I’m only human. I will admit I have made my share of mistakes. No one is perfect.

But at the end of the day, it still sucks I have gone through what I have gone through, but this is where one needs to be strong.

When push comes to shove me down again, I have to be ready to get right back up.

Sure, some of my previous dreams have become nothing more than distant memories, perhaps even less than grand visions I once had when the realization of graduating college was long over.

It’s time I move on and find new dreams to cling to for some hope.

So what are my dreams now? Simple.
I will gladly share you some of them right now in no particular order of significance.

1) I want to become a content creator. I dream of making “famous” content. Well, technically speaking, blogging is content creation in its own right, but I desire to do more. I want to create interesting content that will have plenty of different people to check it out. This has been a key dream in the back of my mind no matter how overwhelming life becomes.

2) I dream of becoming an excellent chef someday. Cooking has developed into more than a life-saving hobby. It is a definite passion. I may not be a natural in the kitchen, but I have proven to myself that I am very capable of developing into something more than the bumbling buffoon who once couldn’t hold a kitchen knife correctly.

3) I dream of finding wonderful happiness by discovering the “ultimate” me down the road. I used to have absurdly bad self-esteem after graduating college. Like, it was basically nonexistent. I thought I was worthless. I thought I wasn’t meant to find success. This was completely foolish and toxic thinking at its worst. I am an awesome person in my own right. It has been a long time coming I gave myself a lot more credit. Greatness is certainly inside of me. I just have to find it.

So to all of those you out there who have a dream or two, use those as your motivation! Use it as your catalyst toward a brighter future for yourself!

Believe me. I have been there. I have been through my share of personal lows during these past few years, but I have had my share of personal triumphs as well. I couldn’t have found these random victories without some dreams to keep me optimistic in a world that tries to bring you down.

So dream on!

Dare to continue dreaming.

No matter how pleasant or harsh your reality is, dreams will always be yours to keep.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

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4 thoughts on “The 54th Deadline: To Continue Dreaming

  1. Strawberry May 12, 2015 / 9:46 am

    My dream is to one day start my own video game company, I already have a name picked out even though I’m a long way from achieving that dream. And, even if I don’t get to start my own company, I still want to make video games, I already have two ideas for games that I want to make. 🙂

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    • Nhan Fiction May 12, 2015 / 1:00 pm

      That’s the spirit! I still remember how I wrote a letter to Nintendo when I was in sixth grade when I was really into the notion of making video games as well. I still recall designing games in my head just for fun when I was kid. 🙂

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