The 54th Deadline: Visual

“Seeing the big picture may sometimes require a detailed outline for an idea.”

In three months, the plan for me is to really ramp up my life toward great things.

That’s the base plan, anyway.

Being bold and becoming bold are quite different in terms of reaching an ideal rather than working toward it. Very different. I can say all of the right things, but it doesn’t mean a hill of beans unless I start making the real forward progress I have been yearning.

We live in a world full of ideals, and I truly believe hopes and dreams should be the catalyst to encourage us to move in the appropriate direction. However, reality can be quite cruel, almost sadistically challenging at times, when it boils down to chasing after our respective goals.

After all, each individual faces their own sets of obstacles. No matter how technically daunting they are8f723a9a5885594f866874dbca3591b5.jpg, not everything is so cut and dry. It’s the journey that really matters when you strip away the layers of uncertainty. It’s the journey that dictates what appears in the end when everything is said and done.

For me, I am a visual person. It’s better when I can see what you are talking about it instead of trying to picture it in my head.

I like seeing stuff become tangible, confirming its very existence right before me. I hate it when things are so ambiguous, so mysterious for the mere sake of it, that I do attribute my darker years to be comprised of mixed emotions.

I have been caught too many times in that wonky state of thinking about ideals versus realizing them myself. And the fact is, and this is the harsh truth for some of us to stomach, thinking about how nice something could be is never the same. Instead of just imagining a fantasy, why not attempt to make your current life better? Why not just figure out what is wrong and then take steps to correct them?

I wish I could have come to this epiphany sooner. It would have saved me at least a few years in this recovery process. No joke. When you are down in the dumps, it’s hard to think straight, let alone stabilize your thoughts to determine the most logical course of action.

Regardless, that was then. This is now.

And for me to make my next few months into something I can be proud of, the time is ripe for some proactive attempts at “making it happen.” Continue reading

Daily NhanSense – Day 17

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 17’s Topic: Exercise.

Exercising is important. It helps when you don’t feel like an out-of-shape slob all the time. Don’t get me wrong now. I am no health nut by any means, especially because I was “technically” way out of shape for many years.

I was never really the fat kid growing up. I had a somewhat average body frame for my height, but I was never fit. I just disliked exercising. I found it boring and unpleasant.

But as we all know, no pain no gain. When I reached a point where I just deemed myself as getting fat, I went on a diet. It was a big step for me, which entailed giving up all the yummy junk food I snacked on and cutting out the really sugary things like soda pop and sweets. And of course, some exercise was part of the program as well.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 16

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 16’s Topic: Being invisible.

To follow up on yesterday’s post, there are days where I just feel so invisible and hidden from the world. I know that I am good at hiding, just laying low while everything else in the universe keeps on going.

But I want all of this to stop at some point. I want to be seen. I want to be acknowledged as a person. Is it wrong of me to want this kind of attention?

I have lived most of my life in my own protective bubble, always preferring being behind the scenes rather than sticking out in the limelight.

It’s hard for a shy guy like myself to switch gears to become Mr. Outgoing all of a sudden. And yet, I want to invest all the effort I can possibly muster to take my life forward.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 10

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 10’s Topic: Music.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 5

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 5’s Topic: Coffee.

For the past few months, I have incorporated a cup of joe into my morning routine for six days of the week. I set one day aside as my “free day” where I just eat or drink whatever I want, which usually amounts to junk food and this is more than OK and ideal for the human body.

Coffee is very healthy and beneficial for the diet I am on because it stimulates metabolism.

I have just grown so used to drinking a cup of coffee with my diet-friendly breakfast throughout the week, even if I am not allowed to add the “fun” stuff to it like an absurd amount of sugar, whipped cream, creamer, caramel and so forth.

I absolutely despite drinking my coffee black (how do people stomach something so bitter?), but at least there are ways of making the coffee taste tolerable for my palate.

Oh well. I think coffee places like Starbucks are severely overpriced, but it’s a person’s prerogative to spend $5+ for something they could easily make at home.

So for six days of the week …

I start with a generic brand of coffee.


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MOBA Monday: An Expanding Genre

MOBA Monday: 
MOBA (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) is my favorite kind of gaming genre in the world.
Once upon a time, the term MOBA did not exist in the gaming world. The first MOBA to develop a cult following of sorts was Defense of the Ancients (DotA).

Technically speaking, DotA was nothing more than a custom map you could play on the Warcraft III game. One could even go as far as to say it was a “mini-game,” but an amazingly complex one that impacted gaming history forever. Yes, we are talking about a custom map here, after all.

DotA grew in popularity to the point where many purchases of the Warcraft III Battle Chest occurred just so people could play it. There was nothing like it anywhere else in the gaming market back in the day. It was one-of-a-kind. To say DotA, let alone the entire MOBA genre up to this point, was niche would be an understatement.

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Random Kanji Knowledge: Yuugou

Random Kanji Knowledge: Kanji is a complicated means of conveying language. With literally thousands of symbols that have different readings depending on context, the layers of complexity can prove overwhelming. However, beyond the squiggly lines lies sophistication to those patient and diligent enough to learn. Kanji is really cool in this regard.

Random Kanji Knowledge time!

Today’s kanji is 融合, which is read as yuugou (YUU-goh).

融合 is often used in the context of “fusion,” as in a literal unity between multiple things.

融 is a symbol for “dissolving” or “melting.”

合 represents something “fitting in” or “joining (together).”

So in a sense, 融合 represents how things can “combine” and fit together as one.

The stroke order for 融合 is shown below. Continue reading