The 54th Deadline: Tagline Transition

There comes a point where life forces you to transition toward the next stage. What matters now is for me to figure out what that next stage entails.

“Complete the process.”

This will be the next tagline I will use for this blog and other things.

Lately, I have been racking my brain over what few words I want to define myself with, and “Remember the name” was not quite fitting for my current situation and then some.

I am not a finished product yet. I am incomplete. But to be unfinished is not a bad thing. As long as I keep moving forward, as long as I keep putting the pieces together, the process will see its completion at some point.

It’s an inevitable conclusion to everything. It just takes time. And waiting for so long can stir up some feelings of impatience. Rightfully so, I realize I seemingly flip-flop between progress and setbacks. It is by far a frustrating crawl toward where I want to be.

I make a few steps forward, and then something either delays or pushes me back to the previous checkpoint. However, this is where resilience comes into play. This is where a sense of tenacity becomes that more important.

This tagline of “Complete the process” isn’t something revolutionary or anything of the sort, but I wanted words to live by as I sift through the positives and negatives in my life at this very moment.

On one hand, I am grateful that I am alive, living independently and able to have some semblance of hope about what I want to undertake next. Conversely, though, I am constantly struggling with myself to muster up the necessary gumption to break through to the next stage.

It is not that I lack willpower or anything like that. You just have to play the cards you’re dealt with, and sometimes you lack an ideal hand to win at a given moment. So what do you do? Win or lose, you keep playing. You just have to keep playing. It’s an odds thing. You play a large quantity of games until something favorable happens. It’s just gambling. And by the way, I suck at gambling.

Perhaps you can attribute to how I am someone who does not take many risks by default, and so I often opt for the safer route, as you will. Regardless, I think being cautious and wary of screwing up keeps me honest. Otherwise, I could have been in real hot water by now.

I am not in a position where I can make a great leap of faith and possibly reach my next destination in life ahead of schedule. No shortcuts here. That’s for sure.

Instead, I just think I am going to keep doing this step-by-step, usually grueling, journey. It will take awhile, folks. But I am willing to see what is waiting for me in the end.

Heck, I am able to do this because life threw me a bone many years ago when I was down in the dumps.

This is why I believe in life’s second (and countless other) chances. It’s why I call this blog series The 54th Deadline. I believe I definitely embody the notion that life will give you more opportunities to get it right. To those of you who think it’s always a one-and-done deal, think again.
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Abide by the Vibe: Choice

“We all abide by the vibe we create for ourselves.”

Life is driven by the choices we make every day.

Do you choose to be happy, sad, mad or something else?

Every choice we come across is a chance to shape our vibe.

What kind of vibe will you create today?

The choice is yours.

“We all abide by the vibe we create for ourselves.”

Random Kanji Knowledge: Unmei

Random Kanji Knowledge time!

Today’s kanji is 運命, which is read as unmei (oon-may). 運命 means fate/destiny.

運 can refer to stuff like “luck” or “motion,” as in movement. For instance, 運動 (undou) means exercise.

命 can represent things like destiny, life and decree, as in something has “ordered” for stuff to happen to you throughout your existence.

Thus, you can think of 運命 as the “motion of life,” but whether this entails good or bad fortune is another matter altogether.

“I hate the word fate. Birth, encounters, partings, success and failures, fortune and misfortunes in life. If our lives are already set in stone by fate, then why are we even born? There are those born to wealthy families, those born to beautiful mothers and those born into the middle of war or poverty. If that’s all caused by fate, then God is incredibly unfair and cruel.”

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Dependable Uncertainty

Life is full of surprises. “League of Legends” is no different in this regard. Every time you queue up and brace yourself for a match, you never quite know how things will pan out. Sure, in a perfect world, every queue is going to be full of the nicest people possible, every player is competent and everyone will all gel together that it becomes an enjoyable experience no matter what. However, this is why games are not played on paper.

In reality, the only thing you can count on is a dependable thing called uncertainty. No matter how much you want to predict the future, you never will know for sure unless you let things play out. It’s why we take risks as humans to let destiny run its course. It’s the only real way to live, isn’t it?